I would like to add a pain to the list of pains, it has been bothering me a while.
Entwined cords of stiffness and ache in the right shoulder, around the shoulder blade, and then leading up the neck behind the ear and sometimes like an outcrop of pain hanging over the right eye, and behind the eye also, like a pressure from an internal weapon threatening to strike through the outer bodily bits.
It is antagonistic to sleeping.
I heard or read I hope, the shoulder blade is where you start, when skinning someone alive (or dead? is also possible) -- I cannot believe in "human kindness" when there is skinning alive going on (but from the start the feasting on all animals should have been a clear indication)
The pain, particularly its neck part, could be the first pain felt from someone being guillotined or otherwise beheaded -- it would be quick though and that first pain would not be remembered (there is not much time for memory at that point) and there would be many other pains along the way that may come to seem like a coherent process (it coheres alright, it is very logical, and the visual evidence is overwhelming) for the beheaded and beheader and their apparatus between them and justice before and after (long before long after)
JUSTICE -such terrible concept.
addition of one pain
door bell
When a doorbell is rung nearby, after its real tone has subsided, I hear regular phantom doorbells , just at the cusp of my hearing, but definitely there (or here). After a while I wait for them (the phantom doorbells) and they appear just as soon as my mind gives up listening.
This doesn't happen with other sounds.
The real doorbell, at the actual door here, leaves me in shock, worry, and panic.
ideal daughter
A while ago, had the good fortune to locate an ideal daughter in a (fairly humdrum) music video. The video itself recognises this (that it contains within it an ideal daughter), all the other potential daughters (and sons) are relegated to minimal screentime -- (but some have better outfits).
That's mochida kaori, one of the sleepiest Jpop singers.
stolen comment 003
"The kids are painting shit on canvasses that looks like VH1 logos from 2004 in hopes of designing a shoe."
what does this mean 001 ?
from an article about deKooning (talking about 1980ish paintings):
Unlike other recent deKoonings, these don't appear caught in the act of tearing themselves apart. Even the big seven-foot ones feel a bit like drawings waiting for mats.
"drawings waiting for mats" -- what does this mean? What mats? The cat sat on the mat. It is something on a floor.
Do I have a brain disease already
In any case I like the paintings "Peter Schjeldahl" is discussing, in "The Hydrogen Jukebox: Selected Writings"
Some sort of illustrated mat? That attend drawings, waiting drawings?
Love, Urination, Rape
Looking at Artaud things on google books, came across this thing of surrealists conversing, extracted some for you:
RAYMOND QUENEAU: The other day I was asked: 'Do you believe that there is a woman who is your destiny?' What does Artaud think?
ANTONIN ARTAUD: I've never believed anything else. I think it's highly probable that I'll never meet her.
ANDRE BRETON: What is this virtual notion of destiny? If you are not going to meet this woman, how can you say that she is destined for you?
ANTONIN ARTAUD: I will necessarily meet her, but perhaps not in this life. I would add that I have a very low opinion of this woman!
. . .
(soon Artaud leaves for reasons undisclosed)
. . .
RAYMOND QUENEAU: What would you feel about seeing a woman urinate?
ANDRE BRETON: If it's a woman I love, it could only be very pleasant.
YVES TANGUY: Very, very pleasant.
MARCEL DUHAMEL: Very exciting.
BENJAMIN PERET: Very pretty to watch, and pleasantly musical.
RAYMOND QUENEAU: It's very good.
JACQUES PREVERT: I agree.
PIERRE UNIK: It's never happened to me.
BENJAMIN PERET: What does Duhamel think about hearing a woman fart?
MARCEL DUHAMEL: It was one of the most unpleasant things I could remember when it happened to me a long time ago. Now, I don't think it would bother me.
RAYMOND QUENEAU: No opinion.
JACQUES PREVERT: The less often the better.
ANDRE BRETON: Appalled by it.
YVES TANGUY: I don't care.
BENJAMIN PERET: Very unpleasant.
PIERRE UNIK: It must be very unpleasant.
. . .
RAYMOND QUENEAU: What do you think of rape?
BENJAMIN PERET: Absolutely opposed to it.
YVES TANGUY: Very, very good.
ANDRE BRETON: Absolutely hostile to it.
RAYMOND QUENEAU: It's the only thing that appeals to me.
MARCEL DUHAMEL: It doesn't appeal to me.
JACQUES PREVERT: I find it legitimate.
PIERRE UNIK: I am against it.
mariah carey
The television had the film "glitter" on it. Didn't seem bad enough to warrant its reputation. Quite like Mariah Carey, ever since a father of a school friend had given me the tape of the first album, like as an act of generousity. I think the first tape was called "visions of you". The second one was good too, it was called "emotions". The third I can't remember, it had that song "I caaaa-n't livvuuue : if liviiin^^gg~~__g is without yY~OOo>---uuu (o-e-u)"
It didn't seem like such a horrific film as the general view is saying. For example, I think the film "good will hunting" is far more awful. The recent "transformers" film (only the first one that I saw a small portion of on the tv) seemed far too awful to be real (especially with certain generational loyal feelings towards transformers)
Can't really think of many terrible films. "glitter" is about a third as good as "save the last dance". "good will hunting" does not qualify as a film in these measurements.
Overall I am sympathetic towards "glitter".
